From My Bedroom Window

This is the view from my bedroom window. The tree in my front yard bloomed overnight. I love this view. Even in the middle of winter it is wonderful. The Victorian houses across the street are always happy. The bushes provide shelter to a hundred of birds with a hundred songs. I'm trying to learn them so that I can recognize which bird goes with which song, but then the Mockingbirds throw me for a loop because they know a hundred songs, too. They are song stealers and their imitations are in ways better than the originals because they project their thievery loudly and clearly.

For now, the dead of night is dead quiet. Not a peep, nor engine, nor distant drone, nor car alarm. Dead, still, quiet except for the occasional cat scream. It will only stay like this for a short while though, because once summer arrives the night will be full of the loudest crickets and frogs. I can barely hear myself dream.

Easter

Mr. Bunny

I took my friend Deborah to Auntie Mia's house for Easter, on the eastern end of Long Island (north fork). It's always quiet, still, and peaceful there. We were all women except for Cade (Debbie, Deborah, Mia, Mia's mom, Christina, Rose, and Ellen). Only Ellen, the one true visitor for the day, wore make-up. We had roast lamb, asparagus & scallions, and salad. We ate and drank until we could no longer move or hold intelligent conversation. The only remnant left of the holiday is the crumpled gold foil on my bedside table where a chocolate bunny once stood.

View of Goose Creek from the Porch

Asparagus & Scallions

Cade, The Only Man at the Party

Eggs in Baskets & Birds Nests

Spring Has Sprung

This post is for those who have never been to New York and think that it must be a dirty, ugly city. I have news for you. It’s not. New York is beautiful in all its seasons, and Spring is exceptional.



This is a wonderful time in the city because the weather is perfect, perhaps in the way that only a Pisces could appreciate it because it’s the season of our birth– wind, rain, sun, clouds, warmth (snow, even). To me, it is much like a Monet painting - extremely colorful, but nothing exacting. The flowers and trees are at their prime, looking very sexy to the birds and the bees, no doubt. I’ve spent the last few days photographing it just so I can prove you wrong – and this is only what I’ve managed to capture in my small world; walking to work, music lessons, and a rainy day in Central Park on my day off. You should know that I ruined a perfectly good pair of white pants to get these photos for you.



These pots of color are in front of the building where I work on Third Avenue. Such pots exist everywhere in the city. Amid noise and people they stick up like flags saying, Don’t Forget To Keep It All In Perspective!!!

Meridian of Park Avenue

West Nineteenth Street

Central Park South

Central Park has a magic all its own. It’s so large that you can get lost in your thoughts, forget where you are, lose track of time. The sounds of traffic disappear. This time of year, blossoms fall like snowflakes and it makes me mad that that I’m not able to capture them with my camera. Maybe falling blossoms is one of those magic things that are so sacred, they defy capture of any kind.

A Blossom Mess

The park is full of fairies that come out to play when no one is looking. This time of year they are sleeping in the folds of tulips, playing hide-and-seek in daffodils, learning new songs from the small birds. I did see one floating on a pink pedal but didn’t want to disturb.












Spring
Again, the violet bows to the lily.
Again, the rose is tearing off her gown!

The green ones have come from the other world,
tipsy like the breeze up to some new foolishness.

Again, near the top of the mountain
the anemone’s sweet features appear.

The hyacinth speaks formally to the jasmine,
“Peace be with you.” “And peace to you, lad!
Come walk with me in this meadow.”

Again, there are Sufis everywhere!

The bud is shy, but the wind removes
her veil suddenly, “My friend!”

The Friend is here like water in the stream,
like a lotus on the water.

The narcissus winks at the wisteria,
“Whenever you say.”

And the clove to the willow, “You are the one
I hope for.” The willow replies, “Consider
these chambers of mine yours. Welcome!”

The apple, “Orange, why the frown?”
“So that those who mean harm
will not see my beauty.”

The ringdove comes asking “Where,
where is the Friend?”

With one note the nightingale
indicates the rose.

Again, the season of Spring has come
and a spring-source rises under everything,
a moon sliding from the shadows.

Many things must be left unsaid, because it’s late,
but whatever conversation we haven’t had
tonight, we’ll have tomorrow.

- Rumi

Toto, We're Not in Switzerland Anymore

This is the clock outside of the Port Washington train station. The time is actually 11:59. It has been stuck in this position all week.




This is the clock ON the Port Washington train station. It's still 11:59. It was wrong all week but somebody fixed it to be only one hour off. Daylight savings time was two weeks ago.

Prague Parting Thoughts

Birthday Journal: I slept in. I went to Vysehrad. I had cake and ice cream. I saw the astrology clock ring at six o’clock. I took a nap. I ate fish tacos while viewing a magnificent indoor coral reef. I saw a fabulous concert inside the Municipal House. I got lost. I bought a bottle of Becherovka. I read Amy Tan. Not in that order of course, but who cares?



I thought of all of you at least once – while watching the magnificent astrology clock and its parade of Apostles – or when sipping tea in a French café, or when listening to a Dvorak cello concerto, or when adventuring through unknown streets, or when walking through Josefov. I imagined what we would have been doing and how much fun it would have been to share it with you. So you see, you were there, at least in spirit. We rendezvoused someplace fabuloso and had a great time.



Prague is esoteric and metaphysical; otherworldly and mysterious - the birthplace of wonderful things like alchemy and art nouveau. It’s beautiful and musical. Every building looks like a wedding cake and comes in one of several flavors; French Vanilla, Apricot, Pistachio or Banana Cream.




In the few days that I was there I both lost myself and found myself. I lost the part of me that was buried in the business of creating a life in New York, which can easily become a full-time job. I lost the desire to watch TV. I found my authentic self. I now get up and write every morning. I keep asking; “What am I expressing and who am I expressing it to?” I believe that it all gets summed up in our final hour of breath - when we’re in that place between two worlds - We have a conversation with God and all he really wants to know is; 1) How did you express yourself? 2) How did you help others? and 3) Are you pleased with the outcome? It’s important for us to be around people who open us up and inspire us to express ourselves and to be in places that give us the same feeling. New York and Prague both give me that, but in different ways. Prague gives me an ethereal open feeling and New York gives me righteous approval to do anything I damn want. Everything is there for the taking…but that’s another subject.



Since I returned from my little trip, I’ve given up on trying to force outcomes in all areas of my life. I now constantly have this sensation that I’m floating on my back in a beautiful pool after the sun has set, surrounded by lotus flowers and candles. Things that I thought were so important before are now completely forgotten. The only thing I really care about now is sharing it all with you. Being hidden doesn't feed anyone. I feel a really strong need to live life to the fullest in honor of all the women in this world who cannot due to cultural restrictions. If they can't live their dream, I'll live it for them. I really have nothing better to do.